Keeping a Remembrance
Blaise Pascal inscribed a recording of his experience with Christ on a piece of parchment as a Mémorial. He had it sewn under the lining of his successive coats until the end of his life. It was a way for him to keep the fiery joy of his conversion close to his heart until the end of his life.
In the year of Grace, 1654,
On Monday, 23rd of November, Feast of St. Clement, Pope and Martyr, and of others in the Martyrology,
Vigil of Saint Chrysogonus, Martyr, and others,
From about half past ten in the evening until about half past twelve
God of Abraham, God of Isaac, God of Jacob, not of the philosophers and scholars.
Certitude. Certitude. Feeling. Joy. Peace.
God of Jesus Christ.
Deum meum et Deum vestrum. [My God and your God.]
“Thy God shall be my God.”
Forgetfulness of the world and of everything, except God.
He is to be found only by the ways taught in the Gospel.
Greatness of the human soul.
“Righteous Father, the world hath not known Thee, but I have known Thee.”
Joy, joy, joy, tears of joy.
I have separated myself from Him.
Derelinquerunt me fontem aquae vivae. [I have forsaken the fountain of living waters]
“My God, wilt Thou leave me?”
Let me not be separated from Him eternally.
“This is eternal life, that they might know Thee, the only true God, and the one whom Thou has sent, Jesus Christ.”
I have separated myself from Him: I have fled from Him, denied Him, crucified Him.
Let me never be separated from Him.
We keep hold of Him only by the ways taught in the Gospel.
Renunciation, total and sweet.
Total submission to Jesus Christ and to my director.
Eternally in joy for a day’s exercise on earth.
Non obliviscar sermons tuos. Amen. [Do not forget your words. Amen]
Quoted from: Emile Cailliet, Pascal: The Emergence of Genius (New York: Harper & Brothers, 1961), pp. 131, 132, which quotes from Mémorial de Pascal, Oeuvres, v. 12, 3-7. (as found in Philippians, Colossians, and Philemon: The Fellowship of the Gospel and the Supremacy of Christ, R. Kent Hughes. Crossway)